Steven-Jake Miller

[ti:Steven]
[ar:Jake Miller]
[al:The Road Less Traveled - EP]
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[00:15.51]Yeah look
[00:17.25]Let me tell you about
[00:18.07]A kid named Steven
[00:19.38]He's slowly running out
[00:19.95]Of things to believe in
[00:21.48]Every couple of months
[00:22.36]His mom leaves him
[00:23.10]For no good reason
[00:24.23]His step-dad beats him
[00:25.60]Not too many friends
[00:26.28]Only ever had a few of them
[00:27.67]But recently they don't want
[00:28.41]Anything to do with him
[00:29.47]Always eating lunch
[00:30.22]In the bathroom stall
[00:31.03]He just wants to feel normal
[00:32.34]And be cool again yeah
[00:33.84]Always feeling like the outcast
[00:35.39]He's been going crazy
[00:36.26]Ever since his dad passed
[00:37.39]He needs guidance
[00:38.02]And advice but instead
[00:39.09]He only has breakdowns
[00:40.11]And flashbacks of the car crash uh
[00:42.11]It's been getting harder everyday
[00:43.64]If he was still around
[00:44.58]Everything would be ok
[00:45.76]Cuz his dad was always the light
[00:46.94]At the end of the tunnel
[00:47.94]But now that same damn tunnel
[00:48.87]Is looking dark and grey
[00:50.38]He keeps quiet in the back of the class
[00:52.06]And when the bell rings
[00:53.18]Steven hurries home fast
[00:54.49]Scared to death the other kids
[00:55.67]Will kick his a** on the long walk home
[00:57.36]Cuz its happened in the past so
[00:58.67]He's getting used to
[00:59.47]The black eyes and fat lips
[01:00.84]But all he's got is a fake smile and cut wrists
[01:02.92]Wishin' he could walk right up to them
[01:04.25]And show them the scars
[01:05.13]And say look you're the reason
[01:05.99]That I've done this
[01:07.18]Maybe they would finally understand
[01:08.54]And go back to how it was before it all began
[01:10.66]But he's just a little different
[01:11.66]So they taunt him and they beat him
[01:12.91]Yeah it's all just fun and games
[01:14.03]They don't give a damn yeah
[01:15.18]His older brother ain't around
[01:16.58]In and out of jail
[01:17.58]Hanging with the wrong crowd
[01:18.70]He's been doing coke smoking w**d
[01:20.01]Getting drunk all his life he's a shame
[01:21.70]No he's not too proud
[01:22.67]Now his habits are rubbing off
[01:24.16]On his little bro yeah
[01:25.53]But guess what
[01:26.28]Little did he know
[01:27.10]That everytime he did a line
[01:28.45]Everytime he lit a joint
[01:29.45]Everytime he took a shot
[01:30.51]He was sippin mode
[01:31.32]So Steven's sitting in his room
[01:32.51]Getting high now
[01:33.38]Doors locked music up
[01:34.51]With his lights out
[01:35.57]He just takes another tote
[01:36.58]Til his room fills with smoke
[01:37.58]5-6-7 hours til he knocks out
[01:39.63]Now he started stealing pills from his mom
[01:41.47]8-9-10 at a time and now they're gone
[01:43.59]And maybe for a moment
[01:44.53]All his problems seem to fade
[01:45.54]But the high fades too after not too long
[01:47.54]And that's when it really sinks in
[01:48.85]And that's when it hits him
[01:50.03]That these god damn *** won't fix him
[01:51.78]Curled up on the floor
[01:52.90]Can't take it anymore
[01:53.78]Now he's talking to God
[01:54.77]Cuz he's the only one that gets him
[01:56.21]On his knees looking up
[01:57.53]Can't stop crying
[01:58.27]"God I know we haven't talked in a long time
[02:00.39]But this time I really need you
[02:01.88]Please God help me say something
[02:03.23]Just give me a sign
[02:04.12]Because now I'm falling apart and
[02:05.21]I don't think that I can do it
[02:06.64]Please God give me the strength
[02:07.77]To pull through it Tell me
[02:08.89]Should I give up
[02:09.70]I could end it all right now
[02:11.01]I just don't know
[02:11.70]If I'm brave enough to do it
[02:13.01]Cuz there's gotta
[02:13.57]Be a better way than suicide
[02:14.96]Try to wait it out
[02:15.90]Give it time you'll be fine
[02:17.02]But it's been so long
[02:18.09]And I still haven't been able to get rid
[02:19.64]Of all the thoughts that I feel inside
[02:21.05]So sick so angry so mad
[02:23.36]And to top it off no one even knows that"
[02:25.25]That's when he stood up
[02:26.19]Wiped his tears
[02:27.00]Walked over to his desk
[02:28.06]And got a pen and a notepad
[02:29.78]He just couldn't see it getting any better
[02:31.34]So on a cold dark night in December
[02:33.50]Steven knew exactly
[02:34.49]What he had to do
[02:35.43]But first he sat down
[02:36.55]And wrote a couple letters
[02:37.55]One to his step-dad
[02:38.55]One to his mother
[02:39.61]Couple to the kids at school
[02:40.87]One to his brother
[02:41.75]Bringing them the pain
[02:42.62]That they once brought him
[02:43.69]Tear drops on the paper one after another
[02:46.17]Yeah I hope that you all feel guilty
[02:48.29]Cuz I'm broken now
[02:49.04]And you can't heal me
[02:50.35]And now you're all an accompliss in murder
[02:52.04]Each and every one of you
[02:53.09]Has chipped in to kill me
[02:54.40]So the reason that
[02:55.27]I'm writing you this evening
[02:56.50]Is to say goodbye
[02:57.18]And to tell you that I'm leaving
[02:58.52]But don't hold your breath
[02:59.51]Cuz I ain't never coming back
[03:00.79]Sincerely yours Steven