[ti:if you only knew (Explicit)] [ar:Alexander Stewart/Roland Spreckley/Adam Yaron] [al:if you only knew] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]if you only knew (Explicit) - Alexander Stewart/Rollo/Adam Yaron [00:01.67]Composed by:Alexander Stewart/Roland Spreckley/Adam Yaron [00:02.68]Produced by:Adam Yaron [00:03.45] [00:14.68]I've been tryin' so hard to survive [00:17.90] [00:18.42]Sometimes I think that I wanna die [00:21.53] [00:22.08]I feel so ******* guilty 'cause God I'm so lucky to live my life [00:28.71] [00:29.50]So I keep all the pain to myself [00:32.64] [00:33.38]Losin' faith but nobody can tell [00:36.61] [00:37.19]Mom I don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me [00:41.13]So I pretend I'm fine [00:44.26]If you only knew [00:46.49]What my mind is tellin' me I should do [00:49.58] [00:50.20]That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight [00:53.99]I'm too sad to cry it's true oh [00:59.01]If you only knew [01:00.99] [01:01.59]All the **** my brain is puttin' me through [01:04.57] [01:05.30]You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight [01:08.99]I'm sorry but I need you oh [01:14.12]If you only knew [01:15.93] [01:16.87]I wish I was somebody else [01:19.72] [01:20.39]I'm constantly overwhelmed [01:24.16]Now I'm falling again gettin' drunk with some friends [01:27.82]It's a silent cry for help [01:31.07]I wanna get better I want you to know [01:34.97]That I can't do this on my own [01:38.54]If you only knew [01:40.23] [01:40.88]What my mind is tellin' me I should do [01:43.96] [01:44.60]That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight [01:48.38]I'm too sad to cry it's true oh [01:53.36]If you only knew [01:55.81]All the **** my brain is puttin' me through [01:58.96] [01:59.67]You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight [02:03.36]I'm sorry but I need you oh [02:08.20]Take me out of this hell [02:11.45]Oh somebody help [02:14.99] [02:15.62]Take me out of this hell [02:18.79]Oh I'm not myself [02:22.98] [02:23.96]I wanna tell you [02:25.91]What my mind is tellin' me I should do [02:28.93] [02:29.59]That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight [02:33.26]I'm too sad to cry but I want to [02:37.04] [02:37.60]Oh if you only knew