[ti:] [ar:] [al:] [by:时间戳工具V2.0_20200810] [offset:0] [00:00.00]Survivors Guilt (Explicit) - Joey Bada$$ [00:01.94]Lyrics by:Jo-Vaughn Virginie/Columbus Smith III/Michael C. Flowers [00:03.88]Composed by:Jo-Vaughn Virginie/Columbus Smith III/Michael C. Flowers [00:05.82]I thought I was goin' crazy you know [00:08.16]And like I realize that I wasn't the one that was crazy [00:12.48]I realized that it's the system that was built against me you know [00:16.37]And like I'm not supposed to be talkin' about this [00:19.59]And that's the corruption of it because like me just saying it's it's absurd [00:23.97]And I want people to open up their eyes and realize that I'm not wrong you know [00:27.66]I-I'm I'm just a openminded individual and people should be more openminded [00:34.50]If-If we tryna build up our lives to have material things [00:38.43]And those don't satisfy our needs what are we living for [00:55.38]Right right come on [00:55.77]Alright [00:57.03]This one is for you uh-ooh [00:59.85]This one is for you uh [01:01.17]Is for you for you for you [01:02.79]This one is for you uh-ooh [01:05.61]This one is for you uh [01:06.96]Is for you for you for you [01:10.02]Steezy told me Get 'em so I got 'em [01:12.00]Got 'em [01:12.45]Now my n***a gone he will never be forgotten [01:14.91]Never [01:15.30]Ever since he left I just been strugglin' without him [01:17.82]Uh-huh [01:18.06]'Cause I remember linkin' after school and we'd be plottin' [01:20.64]Plottin' [01:21.09]Talk about our problems and what we do about 'em [01:23.58]Yeah [01:24.21]Journalin' and jottin' we ain't know the world was watchin' [01:26.46]Facts [01:26.67]We was just two kids tryna make it out the bottom [01:29.70]Uh-huh [01:29.79]Now I'm rich and rotten everyday I think about him it's survivor's guilt [01:33.36]Wishin' I coulda stopped him let alone just know how he feel [01:36.27]Lyrically couldn't top him he was the n***a with the belt [01:39.30]Uh-huh [01:39.42]Yeah and that's real rap [01:40.80]I couldn't do this s**t without him and that's just fact [01:43.65]You see if you ain't know Steelo then you really don't know me though [01:46.77]No [01:47.04]And that's how I separate all the real from fake people [01:49.59]Yeah [01:49.71]Or the real from fake fans [01:51.15]Uh-huh [01:51.33]Who claimin' that they stans [01:52.50]Uh-huh [01:52.71]But they ain't know my mans [01:53.97]No [01:54.15]Until the very end wish he was still here I swear it feels weird [01:57.78]How people could accuse me for his death [01:59.55]Sometimes I gotta shed a real tear [02:01.26]Tear [02:01.77]You see the truth about Steelo he lacked the mental health [02:04.41]He did [02:04.62]But try to tell that to people way back in 2012 [02:06.75]I can't [02:07.89]But now that it's a mainstream topic [02:10.02]I'm guessin' I can finally open up and talk about it [02:12.75]So yeah let's talk about it [02:14.25]Yeah [02:14.52]Come into my mind I show you where the darkest cloud is [02:17.40]You ready [02:17.97]I doubt it but let's go [02:19.26]You see Steelo was my bigger bro [02:21.15]Uh-huh [02:21.24]At a point in time spiritually we was in the same boat but [02:24.69]I wanted to take it slow [02:26.28]He wanted to take it as fast and deep as he could go pause [02:29.70]Yeah we had some problems but what brothers don't [02:31.95]Sure [02:32.67]Then I caught a little wave and headed back to shore [02:35.22]And that's when he started drowning [02:37.47]And he had no one around him so partially I feel it's my fault [02:41.70]Hey [02:42.66]And that right there is my internal war [02:45.15]Uh-huh [02:45.24]The reason why I got to feel these external flaws [02:47.97]The reason why I can't heal this eternal loss [02:50.82]The reason why I gotta feel this survivor's remorse [02:54.36]Shh [02:54.51]And here's a message to his fam [02:56.19]I know y'all got emotional trauma that I understand [02:58.68]I understand [02:59.04]But I couldn't f**k with y'all try to tell the world I wasn't who I am [03:02.46]When all I ever tried to do was lend a hand [03:04.74]That wasn't cool [03:05.31]And give the fans the thing that they demand the most [03:08.46]King Capital the f**king G O A T word [03:12.06]I'm just tryna get my n***a heard [03:14.25]Give him what he deserves [03:15.72]This one is for you uh-ooh [03:18.63]This one is for you uh [03:19.98]Is for you for you for you [03:21.60]This one is for you uh-ooh [03:24.42]This one is for you uh [03:25.74]Is for you for you for you [03:27.84]Yeah and R I P my cousin Junior B [03:31.32]R I P [03:31.65]Y'all ain't know too much about him so it's up to me [03:34.38]It's up to me [03:34.71]To share his legacy with the world [03:36.45]It kills me to think he'll never meet my baby girl [03:39.99]Shh [03:40.08]And when I lost Jun' that hurt me in the worst way [03:42.66]Worst way [03:42.96]He even died two days before his birthday [03:45.54]His birthday [03:46.32]D**n that brings tears to my eyes [03:47.97]My n***a really never made it up to twenty-five [03:49.98]D**n [03:50.46]That's why I'm thankin' God every time I open my eyes [03:53.94]Uh-huh [03:54.03]Add the fact that we alive and we feelin' these vibes [03:56.73]Vibes [03:56.91]'Cause we be fillin' these voids part of me got destroyed [03:59.40]Facts [03:59.82]When I lost my boys it's like I lost my voice [04:02.40]Uh-huh [04:02.49]It took me all of this time just to put it in a song [04:05.04]Song [04:05.37]Because I'm still dealin' with the fact my n***as is gone [04:08.28]Yeah [04:08.40]Write they names up on the clouds 'cause that's where they belong [04:11.13]Uh-huh [04:11.22]As long as I live on they'll forever be known this one for you [04:16.89]This one for-yeah [04:17.39]This one is for you uh-ooh [04:19.44]This one is for you uh [04:22.83]Is for you for you for you [04:23.94]Long as you'll forever be known this one's for you [04:26.55]This one is for you uh-ooh [04:28.14]This one is for you uh [04:29.22]Is for you for you for you [04:31.05]This one is for you uh-ooh [04:33.96]This one is for you uh [04:34.98]Is for you for you for you [04:39.24]Yeah I'm off the I'm off the DeLéon neat DeLé-honest [04:42.87]So I'ma make this quick you know [04:44.94]Pastor Black Lip back on that s**t [04:47.82]True story look so I'm in New York my first time [04:51.09]One of my first times that I'm I'm playin' my-my [04:53.73]One of my first albums for the big homie [04:55.74]And he got these kids in there they just on skateboards [04:58.65]I'm like Yo this super cool [05:00.72]This this guy got the kids out here you know [05:02.49]Keepin' the kids off of the streets right [05:05.22]So fast forward a year later I go back to New York [05:09.18]And then I meet this kid he's like Yeah man [05:11.31]I don't know if you remember me me and my homies the Pro Era [05:14.55]Crazy I was like Oh yeah wha-what's your name [05:16.29]He said Capital STEEZ I said Oh okay fosho [05:19.59]Fast forward my boy Doe called me Doe Burger Ahaha [05:24.69]That n***a called me and say Yo you heard these kids [05:26.64]The Pro Era [05:27.84]Joey Bada$ [05:28.86]I'm like Yeah yeah I met the kid Capital STEEZ they crazy [05:33.03]Fast forward another year or so I'm on tour with Joey [05:37.29]We been 47 ever since man [05:39.03]We got that s**t tatted on us man for life man [05:41.40]Tryin' to show the move man you know [05:44.97]Everything come back around full circle you know what I mean