Several Years (Explicit)-Sik World

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[00:00.00]Several Years (Explicit) - Sik World
[00:05.46]Lyrics by：jonathon quiles
[00:10.92]Composed by：jonathon quiles
[00:16.39]Lately all I feel is pain
[00:18.11]Feels like my heart doesn't beat the same
[00:19.82]I wanna give up and I just feel
[00:21.50]Stuck in a life that I know I cannot change
[00:23.81]I'm really lonely and feel drained
[00:25.61]Sometimes I feel like a mistake
[00:27.56]I just sit and dwell in my trauma
[00:29.31]My life's full of problems
[00:30.40]I feel like I might break
[00:31.52]Tried to move on but I just can't
[00:33.13]Breakdown after breakdown and somedays
[00:35.08]I wish I could run away just to escape
[00:36.98]And feel at ease even if it means one day
[00:39.23]Where did my life go wrong
[00:40.82]I was a happy teen and now I'm an adult
[00:42.79]Who's sad as hell and always at a loss
[00:44.89]No one could tell I'm drowning in my thoughts
[00:46.48]I'm still lost tryna find purpose
[00:48.24]After all these years I'm still searching
[00:50.11]Hope you forgive me for being a burden
[00:52.04]Self-love is something that I'm still learning
[00:54.18]And I know I lie when I tell you I'm fine
[00:56.45]'Cause nobody knows I'm struggling inside
[00:58.68]Sorry if you see me cry
[01:00.68]It's just I finally realized
[01:02.65]It's been several years
[01:05.50]Since I felt okay I'm losing my way and
[01:10.20]It's been several years
[01:13.28]Since I've been on meds I still feel depressed and
[01:17.71]It's been several years
[01:20.96]Since I felt alive there's no tears to cry and
[01:25.66]It's been several years
[01:28.74]Since I had a friend they came and went
[01:33.76]Lately I feel so depressed
[01:35.16]Tried to get help but I'm still a mess
[01:37.12]I don't ever rest I guess I'm stressed
[01:38.97]Got my head down hands gripping on my neck
[01:41.25]Did I take my last breath
[01:43.13]Did I walk my last step
[01:44.86]I'm alive but inside I am dead
[01:46.27]Look I lied I'm not fine 'cause my mind is a wreck
[01:48.67]I saw pictures of me in elementary
[01:50.16]I don't remember teachers ever telling me
[01:52.04]I'd be an adult who senses people's energy
[01:53.76]Being an empath attracts those who lack empathy
[01:56.00]When I look back my past shows me bad memories
[01:58.09]Plus it's so sad I had to withstand everything
[02:00.22]All for my last ex d**n thought you'd stand next to me
[02:02.15]You stabbed my back and that hurt me bad mentally
[02:04.51]It definitely changed me but I forgive you
[02:06.52]I understand now that you had your own issues
[02:08.22]Your fear of abandonment really convinced you
[02:10.24]That you weren't enough for the love I would give you
[02:12.35]I tried but I broke myself tryna fix you
[02:14.11]And I feel hurt that you couldn't commit to
[02:15.93]Me or the love I would give you
[02:17.98]Nobody knows what I been through
[02:19.78]It's been several years
[02:23.03]Since I felt okay I'm losing my way and
[02:27.41]It's been several years
[02:30.72]Since I've been on meds I still feel depressed and
[02:35.16]It's been several years
[02:38.40]Since I felt alive there's no tears to cry and
[02:43.05]It's been several years
[02:46.15]Since I had a friend they came and went