Lesley (Explicit)-Dave

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[00:10.41]Look
[00:11.28]They say the unit works in a strange way
[00:14.97]And it must be true because we ain't from the same background or same place
[00:19.38]But me and lesley ended up on that same train
[00:22.71]I'm talking everyday I used to wake up around seven or eight
[00:26.55]To catch the 906 from norbury station
[00:30.00]Two different worlds in the same location and
[00:33.33]One day we ended up speaking
[00:35.58]And I would talk about college she would talk about meetings
[00:38.61]And how she's planning on leaving
[00:40.86]How she hates what she does but she needs it
[00:43.74]I asked her what she was doing it's the weekend
[00:46.38]And she said she said
[00:48.57]I don't know myself
[00:51.27]I don't know myself no more
[00:54.63]She used to be the life of the party for true
[00:57.75]And now she going out hardly ever
[00:59.91]Her man got her in the yard forever
[01:01.89]And her friends wanna help but it's hard to tell her
[01:04.41]Hard to let her know that her man's possessive and aggressive
[01:08.76]And she can't even see it but for them
[01:10.62]It's clear as day she's in a situation
[01:13.23]Her friend hannah had a man that was manipulative
[01:15.84]So she could see it from a mile off
[01:18.33]Turtleneck jumpers makeup around the eye spots
[01:21.36]All the signs were there
[01:22.92]But lesley made it seem a light affair
[01:25.08]Said it wasn't right to share
[01:26.76]Her boyfriend he was a mystery man
[01:28.95]I didn't know much about him but he's been in the can
[01:31.50]Name's jason he's a bad boy with no reasoning
[01:34.95]To be honest I don't know what les' sees in him
[01:37.11]'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart
[01:40.35]But they've both got demons and a deep past
[01:42.99]You know opposites attract apparently
[01:45.15]I never heard her talk about her family ever uh-uh
[01:49.05]He was all that she had
[01:50.25]Until they had an argument and he stopped calling her back
[01:53.04]And I don't know if there was more to the story than that
[01:55.71]'Cause she plays things down but according to that
[01:58.32]He went missing one day in the morning he ran
[02:00.87]She's doing overtime struggling affording the flat
[02:03.78]'Til she lost her job it f**ked all of her plans
[02:06.45]Couldn't pay the rent borrowing and calling for cash
[02:09.38]But hannah she was there for her cared for her
[02:12.81]When I saw les' she told me
[02:14.85]I don't know myself
[02:17.55]I don't know myself no more
[02:20.67]Les' saying I got nothing to live for
[02:22.74]It's been raw but david I ain't never been this poor
[02:25.59]There's no income my boyfriend left me
[02:28.32]So how the f**k am I going to survive when this kid's born
[02:31.32]I said it's a blessing as mad as it is
[02:33.42]And les' I never even knew that you were having a kid
[02:36.09]Bro she's four months pregnant young and neglected
[02:39.15]Single but I don't think she wants to accept it
[02:41.76]So she's still texting exes trying to get this
[02:44.70]Back on track but I don't think that she gets it
[02:49.80]It's emotional obsession clinical depression
[02:52.62]Life is a lesson
[02:56.01]And you ain't got to sit and cry
[02:58.11]And lesley living in this gift called life
[03:00.51]There's no better gift than the gift of life
[03:03.15]So can you handle it
[03:08.79]I don't know myself
[03:11.49]I don't know myself no more
[03:15.30]But that changed her perspective
[03:17.07]Late in December her baby's expected to drop
[03:19.98]She's accepted excited electric pumped
[03:23.07]Only got to wait a few months
[03:24.84]Her and hannah had lunch
[03:26.52]Told her she's pregnant
[03:28.68]And they're the closest of bredrins
[03:30.33]So she didn't stunt to tell her I think that it's an error
[03:33.27]You ain't a mum for a day you're a mum forever
[03:35.97]Whatever and you and jason break up whenever
[03:38.76]If I'm honest that's something you should have done together
[03:41.34]She doesn't know that her and jason are going out again
[03:43.80]And jason doesn't know that lesley's carrying a child for them
[03:46.83]She had daydreams of settling down with jason better 'cause now they're together it's wild
[03:51.63]Feeling like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em
[03:53.88]'Cause while she's letting him down but most of them are never around
[03:57.09]She calls hannah the next day
[04:00.81]Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her
[04:03.18]That she's getting back together with an ex-flame
[04:06.48]So she left her a voicemail
[04:08.43]Like yo hannah it's les' can you call me back
[04:12.03]I wanna talk about the baby you me jason all of that
[04:16.68]I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back
[04:19.62]I used to be so f**king confident
[04:22.17]But these days I swear that-
[04:24.30]I don't know my self
[04:27.00]I don't know myself no more
[04:30.33]It's 330 lesley was meant to get a scan
[04:32.79]But today I think she's going home early
[04:35.16]Tryna talk to jason tell him 'bout the kid
[04:37.38]Addressing any reservations
[04:39.27]Have that conversation
[04:40.53]Middle of the summer and it's raining
[04:42.45]Waiting at the train station
[04:44.55]Hella cancellations
[04:45.78]So she gets a taxi sitting in a backseat
[04:48.66]Blue jean jacket and a maxi
[04:50.61]Actually tired and her legs are aching
[04:52.86]Touched the destination
[04:54.27]Way faster than the cab driver's estimation
[04:57.54]She put the key in the door
[04:58.95]She couldn't believe what she see on the floor
[05:01.74]Some size five trainers raging
[05:04.17]Tears in her eyes but it's cool 'cause they must be the neighbors
[05:07.35]And jason's in the bedroom fully naked
[05:10.17]Lesley running up the stairs but she's making noise
[05:13.44]And she can hear jason's voice
[05:15.27]Saying hide in the closet
[05:16.68]But he's made his choice
[05:17.91]So she bursts in saying what kind of person would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend
[05:23.01]Jason saying what the f**k you're pregnant what the f**k
[05:26.85]You weren't even gonna tell me I mean what the f**k
[05:29.40]What do you want from us
[05:31.56]Nah you ain't in love you just wanna love
[05:35.04]Lesley telling jason I don't wanna love
[05:37.59]I don't want a you and I i don't want an us
[05:40.29]And also I don't wanna talk loads
[05:42.72]One more line before I dash like morse code
[05:45.33]Open the wardrobe
[05:49.17]And jason's on the edge
[05:50.73]'I just wanna see if she was prettier than me slimmer than me
[05:53.82]Maybe your baby's similar to me
[05:55.74]Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me fitter than me
[05:59.22]To satisfy you quicker than me
[06:00.93]I got your baby in my stomach and you did this to me
[06:03.60]What did I ever do to you for you to finish with me
[06:06.33]I didn't believe my girls but they were thinking of me
[06:09.06]And give it to me the wardrobe give me the key
[06:11.88]I was pulling up the door but jason's bigger than me
[06:14.55]Literally I remember viscerally
[06:17.16]Jason pulling from behind me now he's gripping on me
[06:19.80]White flashes eye gashes when he's hitting me see
[06:22.50]I just wanted to disappear I wasn't living for me
[06:25.38]Physically I shut the f**king doors quick as can be
[06:27.99]He's outside asking why I made him do what he did
[06:30.66]Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in
[06:33.09]I'm feeling afraid barricaded with a chair in the handle
[06:36.03]I'm hearing sirens but I just wanna run away but I can't
[06:38.82]Jason's gone by the time police are comin'
[06:40.89]They saw that ain't no one else in the house
[06:42.78]And feds are running through the door shouting
[06:44.82]We have reports of an argument with a woman'
[06:46.86]There's blood all over the floor and it's splattered onto the wall
[06:50.13]Les-ley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds
[06:52.26]She's deep in the stress and it's meters above her head
[06:54.99]If anything she couldn't even say anything
[06:58.14]But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is
[07:00.63]So they call an ambulance lesley didn't plan for this
[07:03.39]Police are in the room tryna find the missing piece of the puzzle
[07:06.33]Until they stumble on something that's kind of random
[07:08.52]It's a phone in the wardrobe
[07:13.92]They had five missed phone calls from jason
[07:16.11]And also a couple other numbers so they thinking that it's no help
[07:20.91]Until they play the voicemail like
[07:22.71]Yo hannah it's les' can you call me back
[07:26.19]I wanna talk about the baby you me jason all of that
[07:30.84]I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back
[07:33.69]I used to be so f**king confident
[07:36.30]But these days I swear that
[07:38.46]I don't know my self
[07:41.13]I don't know myself no more
[07:44.13]She felt sick to her stomach she started panicking
[07:46.68]Mind rattling tryna understand what hannah did
[07:49.38]Battling the shame 'cause the situation embarrassing
[07:51.93]She's tryna fathom it betrayed by her own garrison
[07:54.75]Meanwhile she's on the bed tryna manage this
[07:57.36]Piercing pain in the stomach she couldn't handle it
[08:01.05]Now she's waiting for an ambulance
[08:03.15]Look
[08:06.57]And I know she's strong but when I heard about
[08:08.73]What happened I was over-shocked
[08:10.32]Her nose was gone her jaw line shattered and rocked
[08:13.14]They said her baby was the reason she was holding on
[08:15.84]She dozing off doctors getting no response
[08:18.63]Her heart rate slowing down and they don't know what's wrong
[08:21.27]Picked her up got her out the home
[08:23.34]And onto the stretcher for good measures but she's fading out oh
[08:27.24]She took damage to the brain
[08:28.86]And now she's in a coma as we speak
[08:30.81]But I ain't sure if she can make it out
[08:32.76]You see this time that I'm taking out
[08:34.65]To tell you the story is more than a song or track
[08:37.55]It's a message to a woman with a toxic man
[08:40.02]I'm begging you to get support if you're lost or trapped
[08:42.87]I understand that I can never understand
[08:45.48]And I ain't saying that it's easy but it must be right
[08:48.18]Some of your sisters aunties mums or wives
[08:51.03]Are f**ked aside and they will never touch on why
[08:53.58]I'm touched 'cause I've seen women that I love though like
[08:56.37]Cry little red tears through a bloodshot eye
[08:58.86]This s**t's awful no matter what culture it ain't normal
[09:02.10]Men try and twist it make it seem like it's your fault
[09:05.22]In that train full of people that you're taking
[09:07.59]How many lesleys are running from their jasons
[09:18.81]Angel without wings
[09:23.13]Like the day without the night to bring her peace
[09:28.53]A song without a voice
[09:31.92]A spark without a flame
[09:34.74]A child without a name
[09:38.13]Oh it's just wrong
[09:41.58]Like an ocean without a shore
[09:44.76]A soldier without a war
[09:47.16]How can we do this anymore
[09:51.87]A song without a voice
[09:54.39]A spark without a flame
[09:57.60]A child without a name
[10:00.96]Oh it's just wrong
[10:23.16]Well we've made a massive amount of progress
[10:26.25]In this last year haven't we
[10:29.40]Feels like a long journey
[10:32.82]And I must say it's been a pleasure
[10:34.86]To watch you mature and grow in thought
[10:38.49]And in your career and life
[10:41.46]You've opened up immensely
[10:44.67]I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions
[10:48.24]But you know you can never stop learning about yourself
[10:54.72]So you're always welcome
[10:58.44]I'm just happy you're at a place now
[11:00.09]Where you feel you understand your emotions
[11:05.19]And are in control